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Oct. 18th, 2003 | 02:23 am
mood: contentcontent
music: The Flaming Lips "Do You Realize?"

Today went from good to bad to much better. All I particularly care about is the much better part: Although I had already eaten at Oktoberfest, I went to dinner with Kelly at Elmo's and got a hot fudge sundae.

The waiter was really cute. I have a crush on him, and hope I didn't freak him out with all the eye contact. Heh. I need to practice flirting more, it makes me happy.

I also went with Kelly to the WXDU hip hop party at the Coffeehouse. I really liked what I heard, it was some awesome music. Expressions in the form of art and music are exactly what I want to be doing with myself. Writing poems in front of Duke Hospital and turning my walls into ridiculous collages do count.

Came back, got breakfast from Rick's, which was oh so fabulous. From Wednesday through now, I've realized the joy of eating too much, so now I'm gonna switch over to the joy of eating less. I really do feel good about both in their own contexts. Plus I'm going running Saturday and Sunday, because those are the only days that I have time to do so. Yay for America, where there's so much bad food readily available that you have to make a conscious decision to not overindulge and kill yourself.

I had a great talk with Eddie to end the night. Even our ending the relationship has taught me a lot and matured me, which is good. I heart him. And now that I hope to be shaking off codependence and various other insecurities, I can leave my teenage years behind. Yes, I turn 20 in less than a month. I feel as though I've been selfless enough for years that I can indulge in creating a wish list. So I'll work on that.

I feel very alive! It feels good.

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smee

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from: ballyhoo
date: Oct. 20th, 2003 05:52 am (UTC)
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I am happy you are alive! And I am happy you are listening to a very wonderful song!

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from: ana_duvatney
date: Oct. 21st, 2003 05:07 pm (UTC)
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Describe your waiter IMMEDIATELY. I will perform the hook-up, unless, of course, he's already been claimed (by ME...keep your paws off my Elmo's harem).

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jonathan

Heh

from: silverthief2
date: Oct. 21st, 2003 07:42 pm (UTC)
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He was about 23ish, I would guess, had short brown hair combed forward, he had braces, and I think he lisped. Or maybe I just imposed that on him because I wanted my mental image of him to be even more perfect. Ha.

And he made a damn good hot fudge sundae!

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Re: Heh

from: ana_duvatney
date: Oct. 22nd, 2003 10:37 am (UTC)
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That is my Elmo's boyfriend El! We go out after work, get smashed, grope each other, and giggle like maniacs. He is wonderful. You two should have babies.

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